My skin is still clear apart from my forehead and the itchiness on my legs. I’ve found I’m getting pustules on my forearms and forehead which are irritating but not a particularly new thing for me. Dr Aron has told me to put calamine lotion on them before using the cream – I wish I’d heard about calamine lotion before now, it does wonders for the itch! Saying that though, my itch is still a lot more superficial than it used to be, so perhaps the old itch would have been too deep for it to make much of a difference.
Here is a blurry example of what I think is a cluster of pustules; the annoying thing about them is that without them I don’t think my upper body would have a single itch at all.
Yesterday, the itchiness was so minor that I forgot about my 12pm application of cream until 4pm. I’m not sure non- sufferers or parents of sufferers would fully understand the gravity of this!
I no longer feel self-conscious when not wearing make up. My face is nowhere near as clear as a normal person’s as eczema has left my tan patchy (olive tone really doesn’t help here), I’m still scabby on my head and the bags under my eyes are going to take more than a week to get rid of. However, I feel like I can talk to people and actually make eye contact without feeling like they’re staring at my skin now.
Prior to starting Dr Aron’s treatment, the last time I went out with no make up on was a quick trip to Argos to pick up a duvet that I pre-ordered to avoid being in public for too long. The security guard followed me around the store to have a closer look (I mean seriously, how is it even possible to steal anything from Argos?!) and a middle-aged man stared so much (despite me trying – and failing – to hold his gaze) that I ended up crying all the way home.
A common theme in this blog seems to be me in tears, so I feel like I need to highlight that I’m not a massive crybaby and am normally fairly good at bottling things up in good old English fashion. These last few months of sleeplessness, constant pain and downright despair have ground me down to a point where even talking about eczema could have me on the brink of a meltdown. Such is the way when your body’s largest organ fails to properly function…
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